fantasy writer...

fantasy writer...

Monday, May 28, 2012

First Commandment

Thou Art God/Goddess

On my journey to discover my faith, I come to realize that the Divine is all. It is that supreme all knowing be-ing that my mind can hardly grasp, but it is here on the land, in every being, including myself.
I am a chard of it's crystalline light honing in on my path home.
This is why I define and label, putting faces on Deity, to know them better and understand them and myself.
 As within, so without. Thou art God/Goddess...
So, how do I connect? How can I build a relationship with the Divine?
  • meditation
  • ritual
  • prayer
I am the co-creator in my spiritual life. To know the Divine is to know thy self:

My positive traits include: Healer, great smile, cheerful, passionate, tenacious, devoted, responsible, motherly, dedicated, reliable, honest, trustworthy, friendly, intelligent, creative, talkative,  glass half full, positive disposition

My negative traits include: low self-esteem, critical, shy, trusts no one, easy to stress out, temperamental, aggressive, sarcastic, snobby, condescending, fearful, overbearing

My work in progress: I want to live by example, be the change I want to see in the world. Find inner peace and be proud of my beauty. I want to be satisfied. Be present in the moment.
  • walking my path of the Gods/Goddesses
  • being fit and well
  • writing
  • creating art
  • dancing
  • being a good mother
I am on a path of discovery...
  • Hedge Witchery
    • A Healer
    • A Walker between Worlds
    • Herb Worker
    • Studies the Great Mysteries of Nature
    • Life is magick, and magick is life
    • Combines magickal life and the mundane life
    • Simplicity
    • Fairly give & Fairly take
  • God
    • Gwydion - The god of illusion changes, magick, healing, and the sky
    • Gwynn Ap Nudd - The King of the Fairies and the Underworld and magic warrior-huntsman.
  • Goddess
    • Ceridwen - The goddess of nature, death, fertility, regeneration, magick, inspiration, astrology, herbs, science, poetry, spells, and knowledge.
    • Blodwin - The goddess of the earth in bloom, flowers, wisdom, lunar mysteries, and initiations.
  • The Elementals
    • Earth
      • Spider Totem
      • Hearth & Home
      • Herbs & Gardens
      • Cardinal direction: North
      • Season: Winter
      • Time of life: Aged
      • Time of day: Midnight
      • Regent Planet:Saturn
      • Elemental being: Gnome
      • Colors: Brown and green
      • Magical tools:Pentacle and staff
      • Feminine energy
      • Correspondences include strength, faith, stability and abundance
    • Air
      • Owl Totem
      • Wind & Breath
      • The Fae & Winged Beings
      • Cardinal direction: East
      • Season: Spring
      • Time of life: Infancy
      • Time of day: Sunrise
      • Regent Planet: Mercury
      • Elemental being: Sylph
      • Colors: Yellow and white
      • Magical tools: Sword and Incense
      • Masculine energy
      • Correspondences include mind, intellect, study, consciousness and communications.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

As I will it, So it shall manifest

I'm always at the beginning of some new phase in my life, yet I seem to be running in circles and never moving on from the old phase.... repeating... repeating... repeating...  TIME TO BREAK FREE.... I like who I am and where I am at and it's high time I embrace my WONDERFUL life! As I will it, so it shall manifest, So Mote It Be. I have recently had my heart and mind open to the Veil and have been to chicken shit to cross the threshold. I've been aimlessly and leisurely walking my path, no purpose, no direction.. YET the Divine has spoken to me, never leaving me, have sent guides to me and blessings beyond comprehension and I've been ungrateful. Whiny at best and disgruntled at worst. I am open to the Veil, I am open to my Air & Earth elemental, I am open to the Fae. These are not new things, they have been with me every step, every moment, every breath and I ignore it no longer.
This is who I am and I am brilliant!

xox
Ursula

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Shrinking Violet

But, I'm soooo damn shy that I couldn't bring myself to chat up w/ some new peeps @ Mayfaire. What the hell is wrong with me? I talk to peeps (strangers) every flippin day about "nothing" and I'm so wanting to connect with like minded folks and so damn lonely w/o my pagan community. But I folded. No one approached me, so I felt unworthy to approach them. WTF? I'm also struggling with positive attitude towards my own body and it is bringing up old issues. I need to discover my own self worth and be happy with my lot in life. I truly have a blessed life, why can't I feel what I see???

Am I becoming a shrinking violet??

xox
Ursula