Drake

His smile is charming
His kiss... divine!

His tongue is teasing
His touch... sublime!

xox
Ursula

Dark Horse

So the minute I announce my affection for the fairer sex, the Universe answers in the way of a Dark Horse from my past. A young man, I once had a fleeting affair with whilst on leave from my marriage (a trial separation) that had left me more than a little broken hearted, more jilted and very jaded about romance. Yet the Universe felt the need to bring him back…. ‘WHY’ I scream. Isn’t this what I’ve been hoping for. A simple, casual yet intimate connection with another person? (damn it… YES) Isn’t that what Danilo is offering… ???? (damn it, YES) Then why don’t I STFU??? Because I’m whiny and over think things. This is exactly what I’ve been wanting. I know Danilo. I’ve known him a very long time, so I don’t have to waste hours on dates of “getting to know this person” before I “know” this person. I’m sure we’ve both changed in the past 8 yrs since our tryst. But that will be the surprise for us both. Maybe we needed those years to get ourselves right. When we were together, so long ago, it was really bad timing. Neither of us were truly separate and apart from our spouses. We had other obligations (vows, children, work) and we could not be together. It wasn’t right. So, now??? I don’t want to put to much pressure on this guy being the ONE. I mean we haven’t even gone on a date yet (looking forward to Saturday!) We’ll see how it goes… the least I’m hoping for… you got it…. INSPIRATION!!! Get those juices flowing again and open myself up to any and all possiblities… So here I go again… My Dark Horse, My Prince of Inspiration, My Beloved???.... maybe


Much Love,

Ursula

Breaking My Romantic Illusions

I've been reading this great self improvement book and I have just read a chapter about breaking the romantic illusions and then a chapter about obtaining the life you want. The author asks, me the reader, to think about who I want to be in this life. What is stopping me from being the happy person I want to be. And my knee jerk, gut reaction (with a resounding scoff) answer is; To be a lesbian and I can't be one because of the judgemental, uber-moral, narrow minded society I've grown up in wouldn't accept my choices. (wait.. what...) You mean that my relationships with men haven't passed the test of time because deep down I knew I was missing something they couldn't possibly give me because of their gender and not because I'm a unsatisfied insatiable slut??? WHAT? I'm a lesbian (and NOT bi-sexual)???? Could this be true? After this thought passes through my mind, I verbally say out loud "I'm a lesbian!" and I felt such a sense of relief and a bubble of giggles that filled my spirit and warmed my heart. A feeling I haven't felt in such a long time, a true and genuine smile broke across my lips and lit up my face... Wow what a feeling... I AM A LESBIAN!

hugs & kisses
Ursula