I've been reading this great self improvement book and I have just read a chapter about breaking the romantic illusions and then a chapter about obtaining the life you want. The author asks, me the reader, to think about who I want to be in this life. What is stopping me from being the happy person I want to be. And my knee jerk, gut reaction (with a resounding scoff) answer is; To be a lesbian and I can't be one because of the judgemental, uber-moral, narrow minded society I've grown up in wouldn't accept my choices. (wait.. what...) You mean that my relationships with men haven't passed the test of time because deep down I knew I was missing something they couldn't possibly give me because of their gender and not because I'm a unsatisfied insatiable slut??? WHAT? I'm a lesbian (and NOT bi-sexual)???? Could this be true? After this thought passes through my mind, I verbally say out loud "I'm a lesbian!" and I felt such a sense of relief and a bubble of giggles that filled my spirit and warmed my heart. A feeling I haven't felt in such a long time, a true and genuine smile broke across my lips and lit up my face... Wow what a feeling... I AM A LESBIAN!
hugs & kisses
Ursula
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