I am struggling right now because my emotions are all over the place. My children are flexing their independence and are rebelling against all the rules and it's tearing me apart. Claudia especially, with leaving and going with some dude with out my permission. I FREAKED and it was an emotional roller coaster. - Law enforcement was even called....
So, on Saturday, my dear friend, Anita and I went grocery shopping and out to lunch. I couldn't even manage going to the bathroom because I was so discombobulated! I kept saying "I don't know what's wrong with me." I couldn't function. It was difficult to focus and see the space around me. I had trouble breathing. Anita kept saying things like "You've gone through a traumatic emotional event, and I know what's wrong with you, You need to deal with what happened. You need to process, I don't think your are processing."
Monday evening, we (Anita and I) went for a walk. Things were better for me. I could see and focus, but still not very articulate and Anita repeated, "I don't think you are dealing with what happened. You have a hard time letting it go, no that's not right, like you haven't really processed. You were a mess on Saturday. I've never seen you like that." Then I was like nooo wait... I am DEALING and PROCESSING, but this is taking time. More time than most things I've had to deal with. HOWEVER, I am the Queen of compartmentalizing my life and emotions, it is a true talent and skill I've honed. I was not, for whatever strange planetary and cosmic karmic reason not able to do that on Saturday and my dear friend Anita said... "Welcome to the world of normal people" and I was like... How do you people deal? My mind was like a toad on lily pads...
xox
Ursula
So, on Saturday, my dear friend, Anita and I went grocery shopping and out to lunch. I couldn't even manage going to the bathroom because I was so discombobulated! I kept saying "I don't know what's wrong with me." I couldn't function. It was difficult to focus and see the space around me. I had trouble breathing. Anita kept saying things like "You've gone through a traumatic emotional event, and I know what's wrong with you, You need to deal with what happened. You need to process, I don't think your are processing."
Monday evening, we (Anita and I) went for a walk. Things were better for me. I could see and focus, but still not very articulate and Anita repeated, "I don't think you are dealing with what happened. You have a hard time letting it go, no that's not right, like you haven't really processed. You were a mess on Saturday. I've never seen you like that." Then I was like nooo wait... I am DEALING and PROCESSING, but this is taking time. More time than most things I've had to deal with. HOWEVER, I am the Queen of compartmentalizing my life and emotions, it is a true talent and skill I've honed. I was not, for whatever strange planetary and cosmic karmic reason not able to do that on Saturday and my dear friend Anita said... "Welcome to the world of normal people" and I was like... How do you people deal? My mind was like a toad on lily pads...
xox
Ursula
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