The Crossroads

I'm standing at the crossroads of who I was and whom I'm to become.
I look around and notice that I'm singularly here.
I do not have a romantic partner
I've out grown most of my friendships
I have no faith based community.
I am truly solitairely present.

So scared to be alone and yet that is what I am and I wonder... "Why?" My ego begins to scream at me, "Because you aren't good enough to have people in your life. You demand so much out of people that it exhausts them. You are self absorbed. You are too critical. You are unlovable." Oh the list goes on.

i cry

Then there is a swelling in my heart and these words are whispered.... "in perfect love and perfect trust, as above so below, as within so without...."

wait... wiping tears...
what was that...

She repeats.....
"in perfect love and perfect trust, as above so below, as within so without"

(damn it)

I do not need external validation to complete me, it's already inside of me. Waiting for me to be alone long enough to discover it.....

Dear Goddess, THANK YOU!

I shall follow (alone) on this path of self discovery, self validation and to true completeness.