Religion 101

So, the subject of my faith raises eyebrows in most people that I meet. In fact, I'm often met with scorn, ridicule, patronizing comments and the all time favorite of pure unadulterated disbelief. After all, upon first glance I seem "normal", educated, moral even and very much an ethical and maybe even logical gal. Of course if anyone bothered to go below the surface... Well, that's where I seem to come of as a total FREAK, hippy-dippy, out there, broadband weirdo. I do not see myself as unusual or strange. I admit to being a freak, hahahaha. But honestly, I am just as unique and quirky as the next person. Seriously.

I was raised by a non practicing Catholic, my mother. As far back as I can remember, I've attended various religious establishments, usually without my mother. I've been to many different type of Christian churches ranging from traditional Catholic to talking in tongues, snake shaking Christians to everything in between. I've read the bible, attended Sunday school and early in my marriage was as devout to Christ as I was to my husband and children. I was serious about faith.

Some where along the way, I took a serious look at Christianity and couldn't accept it. I can't agree to take it in parts. Only like and follow with what I think is acceptable and ignore what upset me. To me there are sections of the bible that I disagree with. There are doctrine, policy, and belief of the church or particular sect of Christianity ascribes to that I can not align myself with because it's cruel, hateful, fearful, and corrupt. I got tired of trying to be a "good Christian" but being told how wrong I am. I felt so dirty sitting in the pew wanting the blood of Christ to wash me anew and yet it never happened. I could fake it. I did. But that made me just as hypocritical as those others I didn't want to be associated with. I never felt good enough. I feared God and soon began to resent Him. How dare he make me with free will, a free spirit, a sexual being and then scorn and judge me for it! How could He give me THIS life and no answers. I prayed and prayed. Please give me strength to understand, the power to see me to Your Light, give me a heart that is SATISFIED......

my answer came....

SEEK OUT THE GODDESS.....

In this path, I have learned to love myself. I am satisfied and blessed with understanding and strength that I've never even fathomed. I realize perfection is attainable and sought through the journey of lives that we live in Her path. That I'm a work in progress, here to learn and lead by example. She surely changes everything she touches. When She touched me, my heart swelled so.

I am a grateful daughter of the Loving and Living Goddess.
XOX
Ursula