fantasy writer...

fantasy writer...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Fresh Start

So... I had a moment of weakness at the wedding of my BFF Bea, was it the sugar high from the skittles or the caffeine/energy boost drink of a Monster's Java Loco Mocha talking??? oy It doesn't even matter, every day I wake up is a fresh start.

I'm reading The 5 Love languages for Singles by Gary Chapman. (I know it is Christian based, but The Divine is everywhere and in everything regardless of what the devotees name it.) At the end of every chapter are Questions to ponder and I thought Wow-wee these will make great blog post entries. So, dear reader, enjoy....

To what degree do you feel loved by significant people in your life?
From my children I feel a great deal amount. With every hug, kiss, groan, eye-rolling, LAWL, laugh, high-five I feel their love and sheer joy of being my children. I do feel some from my brothers (although I think it is out of obligation more than unconditional love, but love none the less, and to be honest, my love for them is quiet obligatory in return). As to my sister Vivianne, there is true love and support there. We couldn't be more different and yet even through space and time we are each other's biggest cheerleader. As for my friendships, I'm not sure. I know some love me dearly and I know it, while others are more fair weatherly types. The jury is out on the friendship love.

In a time of need, have you experienced the love of a friend like the one Rob described: "I don't think I would have made it without her??" If so, how did your friend show his or her love?
This is a tricky question (and maybe part of my blockage to love) I've had friends come and go in my life. In the moments we are connected and I would say, yeah totally love and supported by this person. But then the friendship ends (usually a move is involved, sometimes there is a fall out). I want friends like Friends on TV. mmmmmmm When I was 9 I had my palm read at a fair. The fortune teller told me, I'd never have lots of friends and they'd always be moving in and out of my life, that the friendships will never last for long periods of time. Here's the kicker... Is this fate and destiny or a self fulling prophecy and I block myself subconsciously because she told me that???

Have you been a friend to someone in need? how did you express your love?
I would think of myself as a person willing to go the distance for a friendship and express my love for that person both verbally and physically. But honestly, maybe it's me and not them. Maybe I haven't been as open and giving as I think and maybe this is why my friendships fail. Not that I don't have the potential to become a greater friend. I know I have it in me, the desire to connect with people and make lasting friendships. (uh.. thought I was just befuddled in the romantic zone, but apparent I'm socially inept too, ??)

How successful have you been in giving and receiving emotional love?
Well, obviously I suck... hence I'm reading this book to help me figure this out and become better at expressing love and allowing myself to accept the love others have to offer (wow-wee).

How interested are you in studying the nature of love and learning new ways to express love?
OOOHHHHHHH VERY, yeah me.. oh pick me, I want! YES!!!! (ahem) I am extremely open to the idea.

(Is this going to be fun or what?)
xox
Ursula

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